#219

I don’t know what’s on your mind

What that smile hides behind

If I could read into your silence

I am not sure what I would find

I can never tell when you sigh

Can’t ever guess the reason why

When you say these things to me

I wonder if you lie

But looking into your eyes when we kiss

I see mine reflected in them, in them I find bliss

What we have probably ain’t love

But love must be something akin to this

#216

The sun is up

It’s the same old day

Two same feet

The same old way

A mellow tune

A worn out song

With all my demons

I walk along

Seems I’ve waited all I could

Keep on walking it seems I should

#174

You kept on knocking, knocking

Knocking at my door

I kept on granting, granting

Until I could no more

Like many others before you

You filled your cup and left

Never once it crossed your mind

You were leaving me bereft

I kept on knocking, knocking

Hands outstretched at your door

Knocking until I was reduced

To a bloodstain on the floor

When everything is over

When we no longer come to be

You’ll explain to heaven

While heaven will to me.

#173

There exists within me

An ancient grave somewhere

Although I cannot see it

I know it’s lying there

I can’t break free, it holds me in

Like some twisted devil’s snare

It seems I know only too well

The name it seems to bear

#172

You think you know me well

Well you only do almost

No, it’s not your fault at all

I kept my windows closed

You know my words not my silence

You know my heart not my mind

It’s all of my partaking

I couldn’t make myself unwind

You think you have seen me well

Well a lot you haven’t seen

You’re a friend to someone you know

I am sorry but he’s not me

#169 RELIGION

We’re scared dwarfed and awed by it

We look for reasons, meanings and hope in it

We fight, we kill, we die for it

What is it, that we find???

A blind all-consuming faith

A confirmation of our condemnation

A recognition of our incompleteness

What do we see????

A looming loss

A doom deferred

A never-ending road without signs without purpose

What do we get?????

A choice

Nothing more and nothing less

Nothing but a choice

A choice between rotting in the sod

And burning to ashes.

#164

Staring out the window

I feel one open in

I sense the melancholy

Hear silence creep within

I feel a certain craving

I know I have had before

And everytime I face it

It leaves me weak and sore

I feel a constant yearning

I bear a seasoned ache

I keep on longing, longing

It seems for pity’s sake

You too have some wistfulness

You know you have felt it but

You hide it, try to fight it

And keep the windows shut

#97

My brain’s many folds

Hide the things it holds

The testing truths, the lovely lies

The ifs and buts, the hows and whys

Tears and fears and broken dreams

And emptiness bursting from the seams

Here and there a happy patch

Where the thoughts of freedom hatch

Now and then your memories pass

I fail to make them stop.Alas!

It seems my brain is leaking blood

And I am drowning in the flood

#132

In this moment,

This tiny fragment of time

The universe has moved

And with it has your life

For you have lived it

And lost it forever

In this moment

This thin slice of time

Your destiny has been written

For in it you have

Buried your past

And fathered your future

This moment

This pathetic little piece of time

Is as eternal as fragile it is

It is where you exist

And everything else there is

This moment-it is holy, it is divine.

#41

This ain’t the day

When I cease to be

Seems far too ordinary

My last day on earth to be

So much beauty

I still have to see

So much of mmyself

I still have to be

Million thoughts unknown

Yet to cross my mind

There’s far too much here

To leave it all behind

I have no dreams no plans

I just let myself be

And you’ll be informed

When I cease to be